Fetish: Hair Pulling

Oh yes, Suz likes having her hair pulled. The first time I played is when I learned this one. My friend who enlightened me on how good anal can be was fingering me, rather hard, and then he reached down, grabbed my hair and pulled so hard it yanked my head back. I was kind of in heaven. 

My current play partner has pulled my hair several times as well and I love it every time.

There is a catch though. I have to be aroused or at least into you for me to enjoy it. I met up with a guy I had been chatting with for several weeks and within the first few minutes of meeting he pulled my hair to control my head. And I was definitely not into it. All I was thinking was “What the fuck? Well this is awkward…and sucks.”

I mean, I already knew random hair pulling would piss me off and make me likely to punch or kick you. But now I know, and I suppose others should know as well, if I’m not into you and you pull my hair I’m going to like you even less. You won’t get punched or kicked, I’ll just be thinking you’re weird. Haha. Although, I do think it was inappropriate when this guy did it. We had JUST met in person. Not even talked for 5 minutes and he did it. Geez Louise, give me some time to figure out if I like you or not first please! 

So yeah, if I’m not into you or if you aren’t sure if I’m into you, pulling my hair = bad idea. But if I’m into you, and you’ll KNOW, then pull my hair as much as you want. Mmmm….

Fetish: Hand on Throat/Neck

The thought of a hand on my neck, firmly gripping but not squeezing, has intrigued me for awhile. However, it wasn’t until I was making out in Target with my current play partner and he put his hand on my neck that I found out how much I really liked. I’m pretty sure I moaned the first time he did it. Yes, I like it that much.

I know I don’t want to be choked. I’ve been choked before, albeit it was not in a sexual sense. Although, the next time my play partner and I played, he did it again and this time he started squeezing. At first it was okay, but then it became too much. I told him, he backed off. And come to think of it, he hasn’t done it since...I think I need to talk to him about this. ;)

But yes, Suz likes the hand on her throat…very much. 

I’m not really sure why. Perhaps it is the power one has over me by placing their hand there. Perhaps it is just incredibly intimate with a touch of forcefulness. Not sure on the why. But I am sure on the liking it.

Anal

I tried anal for the first time over 10 years ago. The guy I was dating at the time, really wanted to do it. He told me he knew how to make it feel good for both of us. He was full of shit. He was also a pathological liar, which I realized later and broke up with him for, but that’s a different story. 

Anyways, since I wanted to make him happy, even though I wasn’t sure how I felt about the whole thing, I agreed to it. He had me lie on my side. There was no prep really and there were no weeks of training my ass. He wasn’t even that hard when he went to push in and while I think he lubed up a little, it certainly wasn’t enough. 

It didn’t hurt, but it wasn’t pleasant. It just felt awkward and uncomfortable for me. I have since learned he did EVERYTHING wrong. I shouldn’t have been lying on my side, I should’ve been ass up. He should’ve been hard as a rock, so it would make it easier on me when he was sliding in. He should’ve lubed up A LOT. And at a minimum, there should’ve been size prep in that moment – finger to multiple fingers to a dildo and then his cock.

Fast forward to a couple of months ago. One of my Fet friends & I are discussing anal and he tells me I should give it another try, suggesting I buy an anal training kit and use that first. I take his suggestion and get the kit. I open it and am scared to death of the large plug. I still am. Haha! The medium plug is at least sane to think about. But I start out with the small plug. It feels awkward to me. I don’t really know how I feel about it, and I’m back to worrying that I will never like anal.

A week or so later same friend comes over. He tells me he wants me to use the medium plug, so I hand him the plug and the lube. He fucks my ass with the plug for awhile, and I’m in shock at how good it feels and that it is actually turning me on! He fingers me for a long time, occasionally bumping the plug, and I’m in heaven. I will never forget the experience because he actually showed me anal could feel amazing. I owe him many thanks for that one. (I’m sure some future guys do as well. Ha!)

My next endeavor was putting the plug in myself. I used the friend’s method of fucking myself with it for awhile first and then getting it in. Then I got brave and pulled out a couple of toys and used them on my pussy, while the plug was in. It was incredible. I could feel the head of the dildo sliding passed the plug. You’d think it would be an awkward feeling, but it wasn’t at all. 

And now, I really, REALLY want to try DP with two guys. I mean, I wanted an MMF threesome anyways, but now it could perhaps be even more fun. 

I suppose I should at least try anal without toys first though. I’ll get there. But at least I no longer have a fear of anal and know it can feel amazing!

My First Time

Well, it has been awhile since I’ve updated. And there is lots to tell! I’ll break it into a few posts. Maybe then I won’t go weeks without updating. Sorry about that, truly.

Biggest update is that I’ve actually played a few times. Finally!

The first time was an exciting experience. Okay, they all were, but the first time I found out things I really enjoyed and didn’t know I would or only thought I would.

A friend from Fet came over to my house spur of the moment. He asked first of course, but it was planned that night, not days or weeks in advance. Which may have been best because then I didn’t have time to get nervous. It was actually the first time we met face-to-face too. Normally, I wouldn’t play on a first meet or let that person come to my house, but we had been talking for a couple of months online and had Skyped (PG) before. I trusted him and felt very comfortable with him.  We chatted for a bit then moved back to my room. Convo gradually led to me pulling out all the toys I have. 

He had been encouraging me to try anal again and to get a training kit for it. I had gotten the kit but at that point I had only used the smallest of the plugs. He told me he wanted me to try the medium plug, so I handed him the plug and the lube. (I knew he wanted to do it anyways. We had discussed this scenario the night before actually.)

Surprisingly, he made it all about me (another first for me). His clothes never came off or undone. There was ass play, fingering, hair pulling, and spanking. I relished in all of it. I was most surprised at how much I enjoyed the ass play, but more on that in a future post. The entire experience was amazing. And while I was too nervous to cum, though we both tried hard, it still ranked (at that point in time, and I’d still say it was top 3 for now), as the best sexual experience of my life.

So no more vanilla sex for me! Seriously, after the little bit of kink I’ve gotten a taste of, I can’t go back. I even have a new rule. If I ever meet someone in a vanilla way, by the third date I’m asking, “How kinky are you?” If he’s not very kinky, I’m done. I thought my past sex life sucked before, now I know it did. Not going back and you can’t make me!

Stop grumbling. I’m sure there will be vanilla sex in any relationship I have. I’m not opposed to it on occasion, I just can’t go back to it as the only sex. That’s all I’m saying.

But yeah…first time with kink. Pretty mind blowing if you ask me! :)