Positivity

I have a problem when it comes to guys. I’ve spent lots of time pursuing guys who were interested at one point in time but then who, for one reason or another, lost interest; and trying to fix relationships (dating and friends) in which I was the only one trying to fix things. It’s damaging to one’s ego. And a complete waste of time.

The problem is I hate giving up on people, so I will give them a million chances, always hoping they will change. That way, I know when I do give up on them and write them off, I don’t have to feel guilty over it. But in the meantime, I look like a giant idiot because I’m the only one trying. And probably annoying the piss out of the other person, which just makes things worse.

So I’m pulling up my big girl panties and forcing myself to change. I’m going to attempt to listen to what a person’s actions are telling me about them and their opinion on things. I tend to be afraid I’m assuming something which is incorrect, but I really need to learn to just go with my gut. If a guy isn’t making it obvious he’s interested and staying in contact or saying why he won’t be in contact for awhile, I need to learn to accept his disinterest. And I need to move on, not feel guilty for doing so, and not feel bad about any part of it.

So from now on I'm choosing to be positive. And I will remind myself of the awesome things I have. Some of which are:

• I have an amazingly sexy lover/play partner, whom I love and who loves me, but will still let me play with anyone else I want to.  (And he can play with whomever to, just so you don’t think it’s one-sided.)
• I have awesome friends - Fet & non-Fet, who love me and care about me as an entire person, and who support me no matter what.
• I constantly have cute, sexy, funny guys to chat with who are potential future play partners (mostly online because of distance), or at the very least, fun guys to flirt with.
• And I have marks on my butt because Bourbonlime finally gave me that spanking I’ve been waiting for. Hehe!

Therefore, I’ve no need to dwell on the ones who no longer seem interested in me. I don’t need to waste my time, seeking approval and acceptance from people who don’t care enough to give it. I can revel in being an extremely lucky girl, because I really am surrounded by so many awesome people.