I’m Coming Out!

Okay, so it really wasn’t intentional, but mom found out about me being on FetLife and into BDSM. Just a note, don’t check FetLife on your phone when around people who will get nosy about what you are doing and your mom is around.

Mom and I were visiting a family member (or as I like to say "our sister from another mister") in the hospital. I decided to check FetLife for a quick minute. But then our friend begins questioning what I’m doing. And this is how that conversation played out:

Sis: Are you tweeting?
Me: No
Sis: What are you doing?
Me: Looking at a website (I’m a HORRIBLE liar and I’m an open person, so I don’t bother hiding things anymore.)
Sis: What website?
Me: *glances at mom then away* Uhhhhhh…..
Sis: What website are you looking at?
Me: I don’t want to tell you.
Sis: Why not?
Me: I don’t want you to judge me. *looks back at mom and away again*
Sis: We won’t judge you. You should know that by now.
Me: Okay….uhhhhhhhh….it’s FetLife.
Sis: What’s that?
Me: It’s a BDSM community.
Mom: Is this because of that S&M song?
Me: No. *laughs* Not at all. And before you ask, I’m not into pain. I just kinda figured out that when it comes to sex, I’m submissive.
Sis: Okay.

I later told mom flat out, “If you have any questions, ask. I’d rather you ask than just assume stuff.” It resulted in a really good conversation actually. And now I’m kind of okay with mom knowing this about me. I’m sure there will be awkward moments, but eh, after all I’ve heard about her & my dad’s sex life, she deserves some awkwardness from me. Hahaha!

Although, my favorite moment may have been:

Mom: So you like to be tied up?
Me: Well, I haven’t been yet, but yeah, it sounds really hot to me.

Mom: Huh.

My mom has her cooler moments, I must say. And as awkward as that conversation was then, I can laugh about it now.